November 19, 2013

  • North Amityville Shock

    There was a time many years ago
    When past became present
    He thought he was broken beyond repair
    Dreams an abhorrent reality
    A tunneling of horrifying images
    Middle sleep unable to shed tortured delirium
    Phantasmal hallucinatory visions
    Boiling his brain into a delusionary mash
    Day after night a frightening fearsome purgatory

    They calmed him with a shot and ink-blots
    What did he see in this one?… That one?…
    In the PTSD Weirdo Room they had him count backwards
    One-Hundred… Ninety-Nine…Ninety-Eight…
    When he woke up they made him take a cold shower
    Then wrapped him naked-tight in a large rubber sheet
    Laid him out on the freezing porch for a while
    Before they brought him back to his rock-hard mattress
    In the gloom of one of the four wards

    Next to him the old guy from Auschwitz started up again
    “Rachel…Rachel…Where are you Rachel?…
    Shut the hell up you old bastard somebody yelled
    They cooked her in the ovens you jerk someone else shouted
    After she took the gas another chimed in
    The big black male nurse came in with a flashlight
    “Okay…Okay… That’s enough Mr Rosenberg”
    And stuck him in the ass with a needle
    Everybody shut up but he still could not sleep

    They came for him again the next morning
    The nurse took his blood pressure and temperature
    Then gave him another shot
    They rolled him into the Shock Room
    Strapped him down onto the insulated metal table
    Ankles knees waist elbows wrists secured real tight
    Shoved in a mouth-piece so he wouldn’t bite his tongue off
    Tucked his hair under the rubber cap and put the headset on
    He woke up hours later with one hell of a greased headache

    “Rachel…Rachel… Where are you Rachel”?…

Comments (2)

  • Horrifyingly real. This made me tighten all my muscles and constricted my breathing. I can only think that that is not the way to treat grief and loss. I hope and pray we have made advances in medicine and treatment of mental illness but also advances in compassion…

  • In those days Val, the VA would contract out some returning WW2 vets to “institutions” for “treatment” of “shell-shock”… One of these places was in Long Island where I spent a couple of very unpleasant weeks…

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