November 19, 2013
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North Amityville Shock
There was a time many years ago
When past became present
He thought he was broken beyond repair
Dreams an abhorrent reality
A tunneling of horrifying images
Middle sleep unable to shed tortured delirium
Phantasmal hallucinatory visions
Boiling his brain into a delusionary mash
Day after night a frightening fearsome purgatoryThey calmed him with a shot and ink-blots
What did he see in this one?… That one?…
In the PTSD Weirdo Room they had him count backwards
One-Hundred… Ninety-Nine…Ninety-Eight…
When he woke up they made him take a cold shower
Then wrapped him naked-tight in a large rubber sheet
Laid him out on the freezing porch for a while
Before they brought him back to his rock-hard mattress
In the gloom of one of the four wardsNext to him the old guy from Auschwitz started up again
“Rachel…Rachel…Where are you Rachel?…
Shut the hell up you old bastard somebody yelled
They cooked her in the ovens you jerk someone else shouted
After she took the gas another chimed in
The big black male nurse came in with a flashlight
“Okay…Okay… That’s enough Mr Rosenberg”
And stuck him in the ass with a needle
Everybody shut up but he still could not sleepThey came for him again the next morning
The nurse took his blood pressure and temperature
Then gave him another shot
They rolled him into the Shock Room
Strapped him down onto the insulated metal table
Ankles knees waist elbows wrists secured real tight
Shoved in a mouth-piece so he wouldn’t bite his tongue off
Tucked his hair under the rubber cap and put the headset on
He woke up hours later with one hell of a greased headache“Rachel…Rachel… Where are you Rachel”?…
Comments (2)
Horrifyingly real. This made me tighten all my muscles and constricted my breathing. I can only think that that is not the way to treat grief and loss. I hope and pray we have made advances in medicine and treatment of mental illness but also advances in compassion…
In those days Val, the VA would contract out some returning WW2 vets to “institutions” for “treatment” of “shell-shock”… One of these places was in Long Island where I spent a couple of very unpleasant weeks…